Reality Bites

I have been holding off on posting anything to the blog because I didn’t want to say anything I would regret later.  I don’t really think anyone from work reads this- but you never know. 

It has definitely been an adjustment for all of us in the house since I went back to work…lots of emotions flying around. 

Independence!

Sadness

Confusion (is he trying to nurse on his brother?)

Acceptance

Thankfully, we have hired an amazing nanny for the boys.  She has certainly made a really hard transition go much smoother.  Could that smile be any sweeter!?!?

I have been back to work now for 2 and 1/2 weeks… and it is starting to get a little bit better.  I guess.   But basically, I have come to the conclusion that I was brain washed…

It didn’t seem to bother me that much before; but after being away from work for 12 weeks and living on a somewhat “normal” schedule, residency work hours seem so ridiculous.  Why does anyone think it is OK, much less expect, their doctor to work 80 hours a week?    <sigh> It just doesn’t make sense.  

It was easy to go down this road (er, career path) when I didn’t have a family waiting for me at home.   But now, my perspective has changed so drastically.  No matter how early I get home, I still feel like I am missing out on things with my boys. 

But that’s my reality.  Here I am trying to pack in as many snippets of quality time as I can, in order to make up for all of the hours I am away.  Reality bites.